really sick

ACUTE GASTRITIS.... according to doctor’s diagnosis. Right now, I'm not allowed to eat or drink any spicy food and anything with caffeine. My doctor asked me to drink my medicine or else it will be an ULCER soon. *sigh*

This is also related to stress and pressures that I am facing. I wonder when this company will properly shut so that I could get my money and live happily ever after... well, my CPA friend said, the company will pay me times my years of service... so, I will no longer resign as earlier planned.. I will just wait for that...hahaha!

Yesterday, the big boss scolded me for things beyond my control, he said it’s within my responsibility as the editor in chief, but my question was, Can I say NO to the Japanese who have higher position in the company? I can't of course. And that Japanese big boss didn't even accept my reasons... he said he got some questions then I answered everything... now, he told my boss that I've got an attitude problem.... duh?

After he scolded me because of those ads, I talked to my boss upon her arrival at the office and told her everything that happened. I told her I can do those things the big boss is demanding me, but I will also demand to triple my salary... I told her that my salary is so low for my designation and responsibilities and yet the big boss is asking me to do more, that's why I am demanding her to triple my salary. My boss asked me not to demand... she said she will fix it. But upon my assessment she can't.

I'll just finish my job here and wait for the company to properly shut, get my pay and leave... maybe they can find someone who can do better than what I am doing right now.... but I don't know if they can get someone who will embrace everything without getting the right salary.

Like what I've said to my colleagues... If they will not adjust my salary... I'd rather leave this company!