teary day

DUNNO if I'm going to curse this day. Everybody here at work is crying... I am teary eyed, I don't want to burst out, I am holding up my tears. I should be strong or I will not finish anything today. Honestly, ngayon pa lang ayaw ko na magtrabaho, but my deadline is coming so fast. Yesterday, when I talked with my boss, I was teary eyed... did my very best not to let my tears fall down. This morning when we had a meeting, she told them almost everything she told me... except for the person who's to blame. She said, she doesn't want to blame anyone anymore, of course that person have friends within the editorial department. The company is closing down. But still, our boss did her very best not to let the employees lose their job, particularly with the editorial; MMPI, one of the biggest publication companies in the country, will absorb the three magazines. I, as the editor in chief of the newspaper will be moved to the other company reporting directly to my boss and to Japan. Since Monday, everyone here at work is telling me that, I am the only one who's future in this work is still good, that I need not to worry because I will never lose this job... well, maybe they are right- I agree with them too. But I really don't care if I'm going to lose this job, I can always find a better one... God never left my side, that's why I am so thankful to Him. I know, He has a positive reason in everything that is happening. Maybe God, did everything for me to get this position, for there will come a time that this thing will happen. As what I have said months ago, I don't want to plan ahead anymore... I'm just going with the flow and holding on to God's plan, by doing that, I will never miss the right way. I know it's not the end of the world... challenges in our lives comes.. but God always walk with us and help us fight for better days coming in our lives.

I am sad... because I'm going to miss them.



This photo was taken last October 22, 2005 at The Garden of SM North EDSA. 5th Anniversary of GPEC

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4:25pm

I saw something at Friendster's Bulletin Board... I remember Carlo, then something echoed in my mind... "I've seen it in my dreams baby, your company will close and I saw you will be here with me". Carlo has the power to see things that will happen in the future, he told me that thing almost a year ago... May of 2005 to be exact. It did happen... we will be closing... but it doesn't mean I will lose my job. And I don't have any reason to be with him. So, I guess the first presentiment is true... and the second is just a dream.